praise God! our test came back normal. i can not begin to describe the huge relief i felt. it's like this really heavy burden has been lifted.
you know, i never knew what tears of joy were up until i found out the results. my doc had tried calling me but i did not hear the phone so then she sms-ed me with "your chromosomes are normal". such beautiful words. when i saw the sms, i immediately called b but he did not pick up. so then i called my friend s. when the i was waiting for her to pick up, i started bawling & i couldnt stop! when she answered, i could only babble between sobs. hee, hee. i think i got her kinda worried. she was in a meeting & could not talk. i in turn sms-ed her to tell her not to worry cause i was crying tears of joy.
i guess i managed to successfully push the test to the back of my mind - somewhat. i was not thinking bout it constantly. i mean i continued praying bout it but that was about all i did. so i guess when it came all so unexpectedly, i just crumbled. only then did i realise that huge weight bearing on me.
based on my doc's track record, of course i went to see her to collect the report & confirm the results with her. but before i went, i researched & read up on recurrent miscarriages (the wonders of google) and made a whole long list of questions for (they were TWO pages long!) and of course she patiently answered every single one of them.
well, the journey starts here..........