i have decided to have fun while trying again. i don't want it all to become "work". we don't have a schedule to "do it". like nike, we "just do it" - whenever we are feeling horny! this is so much more exciting & fun. no following rules & tips. they were all just getting a bit tedious to maintain. doing it in a certain way, staying in a certain position after we're done, doing it only during specific times...........the list was almost endless. i say: to hell with it!

i am back in the world again. it feels good. i am taking it slowly though. i have a new outlook on life now. it's almost as if i was given the chance to start all over again. i know it sounds crazy & ppl might not understand it. but this is how i feel. it's as if i've managed to shed my old skin. i can start afresh - on a clean slate. and like i said this feels really good.
to everyone who was worried about me, i thank you. i couldn't have come out on this end if you guys didn't give me my space and my time alone (actually it was more like an obsession for me during that time that I needed to be cut out completely from the world)
again: thank you.
and for that one person who was back here in kl during that time, i'm really sorry that i was only strong enough to see you just once. i feel really bad now (now that i'm thinking straight again) u & ur man were so nice & gracious to us when we were in uk. i'm really sorry. i really didn't mean to not see u. forgive me?