b & i went grocery shopping yesterday (sundays are now our "errands day" & i do marketing for the week). i have come to the conclusion that the best place to grocery shop is bangsar village 1. i head to country farms organics first. then whatever i can't get from country farms, i just head up to village grocer. village grocer has quite a good selection of organic produce & products, & not forgetting good imported stuff as well.
although i still have to go to cold storage to get my bio-degradable cleaning detergents as they have more variety & at least they are all stocked on one aisle. i absolutely hate wasting time looking at a multitude of products looking for the bio-degradable ones.
sigh.....all i need now is a store that specialises in a variety of organic produce & products together with bio-degradable items, all under one roof!

i have not been feeling so great these past few days. i simply can not believe how tired i am. i can not even keep my eyes open. my eyes are swollen all the time now.
i got my period the day before we left hk - on s's wedding day. i did not make it through dinner - i made it half way. i was cramping so bad & i was so so sleepy. to top off my usual symptoms, i was dizzy & i was nauseous.
i feel that my periods are getting worse than before my miscarriages. i have developed new symptoms & today is my 6th day but yet i am struggling to get through the day, struggling to keep my eyes open. i used to only be like this on the 1st & 2nd days. but now? my cycle's coming to an end but my tiredness still persists!
also, before i get my period now, i get sharp pains on my lower left side. it's almost like spasms that start a few days before my period & goes away once my period starts.
sigh.............i guess it's age huh?
on another note, i've been keeping track of the number of months that b & i have been trying - 2 months now. this is my 2nd cycle since we've started. so, back on the horse again for round 3! (also, if i am pregnant, at least i won't get all my period symptoms - yay!)

to s: i'm very sorry that i didn't stay for the whole dinner. i feel really bad about it. i mean, the only reason i went to hk was for your wedding! sorry.

b asked if we could pray together last night. & for the first time in our entire history, we did. it was amazing. i was tearing up. i did most of the praying because b said that he does not know how to pray. i don't blame him. he's (was hopefully) a freethinker. i'm just so happy that he's willing to try & most importantly he wants to try.
we have had discussions before on religion & our children. we both agreed that we will raise our kids knowing God & loving God. i do strongly believe in religion, even though during my past, i didn't care much for it. i never gave God a second thought back then. but i will say this, i have had faith all throughout my life. i never doubted. i found comfort in praying whenever i needed to even as far back as then. this is what i want to impart to our children - the faith & comfort.
b on the other hand, has never experienced faith nor understand the comfort that i get in praying & believing. he admits that sometimes, he gets anxious because there's just so many problems & he does not know if he's making the right decisions. to top it off, he can't get comfort from anywhere. so he knows it will be good for our children to derive that kind of comfort & peace from God - the peace that surpasses all understanding.
i know b is trying to believe & i encourage him all the time to pray & to turn to God. i on the other hand, have been praying that God will reach out to b & that b will want to turn to God.
well, last night was a preview of God answering my prayers & i felt all warm & fuzzy inside! : )

b & i went for a facial the other day. i find facials oh so relaxing up until my facial therapist starts the extraction bit. then it goes downhill : (
as usual my facial therapist & i were chatting & you know what? i have been going to her for the past six years! oh my oh my. how time flies. anyway, she told me to inform her when i get pregnant. apparently there are some stuff that can't be done & some machines can't be used. hmmm......... it would never have occurred to me to tell her because facials are only done on the face & neck! but i'm glad she told me. now i know.
so for those who are preggers out there, remember: facials could be dangerous too. so please consult your facial therapist before starting.
sigh....another thing to add to the "watch-out-for-list".........

b & i are going to hk next week for s's wedding. b is looking forward to hk because of the shops that sell toys & figurines. i'm just only ok with hk.
well, this will be considered our "getaway" after our second miscarriage. after our first miscarriage, we took 3 weeks off to holiday in us & uk. now, that was fantastic. to top it off, we travelled business!
anyhow, it'll be fun travelling again (although we'll be on cattle this time!). and i do not know why but i simply love airports.

s's wedding "events" were over the weekend. b & i attended all THREE of them. would you believe it if i say right now that i am still recovering from those 3 days? it's been so damn long since b & i stayed up past 12! we partied til 2 am one night then til 4:30 am the next night! i'm still quite shocked that i could last that long. it's definitely a sign of age.
i'm turning the big 3-0 this year. i know for a lot of my girl friends, it's a huge thing. but for me, it does not affect me that much. i can't wait til i'm 40! i just feel that its part of life & as each year goes by, you experience more & become wiser & more comfortable in your own skin. i think it's great. furthermore, as i age, i enter different phases in life.
well, right now, i'm just settling into a new role (housewife, which i'm really comfortable with) & trying for a baby (or babies!). i'm happy where i am now & i know for a fact that it's simply because of my past experiences that have brought me here. i'm happy, comfortable & at peace. what more could i ask for?

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these are the colours in my life. they have been with me through my darkest times, my confusing times, my why, why, why times, my ecstatic times and everything else in between. they have been pillars in my life.

i thank you all from the bottom of my heart & i truly appreciate all your words of encouragement throughout.

just know this: i love you guys!