so, b and i just came back from our first trip. we went up to cameron highlands. i must say the place has changed so much! i feel that it's rather congested now.

well, we stayed at cameron highlands resort by ytl. the hotel itself was nice and the spa was absolutely marvellous! both b and i indulged ourselves at the spa. i must admit i was thinking that it was a bit pricey but you know what? it was absolutely worth it! to have your body kneaded and massaged........aahh......bliss. then there was also the totally relaxing tea baths.........heavenly bliss! only thing that marred our time there was this film production going on - the noise, the bright lighting, etc. that totally spoilt the whole ambiance of the place. other than that, we both had a good time.

http://www.cameronhighlandsresort.com/

the saying that babies do something new each day is true! the difference just one week makes is huge! when i saw little i the week before last, she was still pretty quiet. but boy oh boy......when i saw her last week, she was noisy (good noisy). she was babbling non-stop and it was oh so adorable. i absolutely love baby babbles and gibberish.

i have finally found a "safe" toothpaste. it's the pureen maternity toothpaste. it's free from sodium lauryl sulfate (sls), fluoride and saccharin. i was on a quest for some time for a safe toothpaste with no luck until this was launched in kl recently. the list of ingredients definitely do not contain any harmful chemicals (well, according to my list of no-nos).

i was kind of worried that it would taste funny or my teeth would not feel clean after using it. but surprise, surprise: it tastes like darlie but without so much foam AND my teeth do feel clean!

i do not know why they market this as a maternity toothpaste though. it works as well as the common toothpastes without the harmful chemicals. in fact, b is also using it.

only gripe i have about it is that it's still not widely available yet. i can only find them in guardian for the moment.

so....it's been another unsuccessful month. b and i have been trying for four months now. when i say trying, i mean we do it by the book: every other day, in certain positions and lying in after the deed. well, i figured how can i say that i am trying and not give it my all? nothing in this life is handed to you on a silver platter! at least now i have no regrets even though i'm not pregnant yet. i know both b and i worked hard at it. we have put in the effort.
well, we have agreed to put trying on hold for now. oh, i'm sure we'll still have horny unprotected sex now and then. it's just that we're planning to go on vacations. notice it's plural. so.........we just want to enjoy our holidays now. we want to travel without the worry about morning sickness, etc. we should take this chance to do all the travelling and enjoying each other's company as a couple before baby makes three!

FINALLY! got this video uploaded. this is a clip of b putting on shoes for my precious little i. he's so gentle with her. this video really warms my heart. this is a sign of what i can expect from him with our own kids. : )

on the other hand, it's like the giant and the dwarf. look how tiny she is compared to him!

i have decided on investing in a video camera/recorder. i absolutely need and want to record every moment of my baby's life. it almost feels like an obsessive compulsive need right now. what pushed me over the edge was spending time with little i. i kept on video-ing her on my camera. but sad to say, the quality was not very good as it kept on blurring in and out. sigh....... i just wanted to capture every single moment of her. in fact i have this really sweet moment of her and b together. unfortunately, after numerous attempts at uploading the video here, i'm still unsuccessful. well, any suggestions on which video-cam to get?

watching b spend time with my niece is so heart-warming. he's also extremely in love with her. he feels strongly now that i should be a stay-at-home mum and raise our child as he can see the difference between his niece and my niece. his niece was and still is being raised by a maid, where else my niece is being raised by her mum. he sees how intelligent and communicative my niece is at only 16 months now compared to his niece then. and it's all because of my cousin's efforts and love!
i'm so proud of my cousin, c. i think she's a fantastic mum. the way she's raising my niece is the way i would like to raise my own child (when? when? when?)

it's been cloudy and raining these past few weeks. i've never told anyone this but i simply love it when the weather's like this. it brings back memories of christmases back in kuantan. it always rains in december over there. i remember the whole house being cold and dark except for the christmas tree lights twinkling away..........in the afternoon! my mum would put on christmas carols and play them all day long. we would either decorate the tree or be wrapping presents, just the two of us. ah.... memories are made of these.

woah...............my last blog definitely stirred up views from both ends of the spectrum! ok....for clarification: all the parents or carers i've seen in malls doing this pram on the escalator thing have never been alone. both the parents are there including a maid or two. in fact i've never once seen a single parent trying to do this. so, again why take any risk with the possibility of something going wrong?
maybe age is catching up with me, but my priority is safety first and foremost. all i know is it's just not worth risking (even with mastering the "skills" needed to do this) especially since it's not even easy to get pregnant!
on the flip side, if the child's asleep in the pram and there are no lifts around (a bit of a stretch in these times) i guess there are two options: either carry the child out of the pram or hang around til the child wakes up. have coffee somewhere and cherish the quiet time.


i know this is a subject that will have people who are for and people who are against and this would be an individual choice.