i was asked recently if i ever question myself as to whether i did the right thing; ie the termination. my answer was "without a shadow of doubt". how can others ask this of me? do they really think that i would not have done everything i could to save my baby? do they really think that i did it for fun? don't they know the pain & sorrow i went through? it was not even an option to carry my baby to term. that was NEVER gonna happen. all the docs i went to consult said the same thing (& i did go to a number of docs in the hopes that ONE would have told me a different story). i can't believe some of the people out there. i guess they'll never understand the pain of it all if they have never been pregnant & they have never bonded they way mothers bond with their babies in the womb. they just want to give their unsolicited 2 cents worth - just like back seat drivers!

i can't remember the last time we had sex. it has been so crazy lately! there was work to deal with, our counterparts came down for ONE whole week. then there's his granny who's really sick. so after work, we have to go back to his place to spend time with her. we usually get back home close to midnight. and by then i am flat out! then the same cycle starts again the next day. when sunday comes around (we work on saturdays too) i'm just so tired that all we do is sleep-in, order food in and watch tv. sigh..........how to get pregnant like this?