i've noticed recently that my mood swings before and after my period have been getting worse. it starts one week before my period's due, then i'll have one good week during my period, then it starts again after my cycle's done for one week, then i'll be stable again and have one good week. i would be irritable, angry most of the time (wanting to scream and shout kind of angry) and moody. and poor b gets the brunt of it all. i'll be lovey-dovey with him one minute then turn into this angry monster the next!
i realised that even i didn't like myself during these times. i also realised that i only get 2 good weeks in a month! so, as any sane person would, i talked to my doc (for only the truly crazy would still insist that this is normal. besides if they are really crazy, they wouldn't know that they need help, would they?).
back to my doc. she thinks that it's because of my recent "due date". she says that maybe subconsciously i've not let everything go yet. well, i don't know if this rings true (the letting things go part) for i have come to terms with it and am at peace with it. it was just not the time for us. i think maybe it was the "due date" part. maybe i subconsciously stored it away in my memory and it just came pouring out. (a note to point out is that even when i was "mood swinging" i never thought of my miscarriages. i was always in the present)
well, since the "due date" has passed and i'm on evening primrose oil now (the period pill), i hope things go back to normal! fingers crossed!