since b & i have started trying, i decided to pee on the stick since i'm expecting my cycle & it's not here yet. it said not pregnant but i asked b to check on it anyway. he's answer? - not yet. : ) when he said that, it warmed my heart.
actually, it might be a good thing if i'm not pregnant now. i feel like i let everything slide since last week. the whole of last week i was inhaling in dust, paint fumes & who knows what else (which all i would assume to be toxic & not good for a pregnant woman). i have also been using cleaning detergents like clorox & glass cleaners daily (the fumes which i also inhale). i know i mentioned that i was going bio-degradable but i was not going to throw out the stuff that i still had left! besides i think this would be a one-time off of major cleaning for me. so i decided to make everything super clean by killing out the germs (hopefully!). i still have not finished cleaning the home. i never thought i would take this long (it might have something to do with the fact that i'm doing this all on my own - hmmmmm). but well, if anyone of you do drop by after i'm done, you would be able to practically eat off my floors!
the other thing is, i went for a massage on sat. i chose the shiatsu massage where the masseuse really, really kneads your knots & she was even stepping all over me (again i stress i was moaning & groaning in pain & not out of pleasure!). so i guess it would not have been wise to get a massage whereby the masseuse was stepping on me rather forcefully all over including my lower back, if i was pregnant. & i might add, whenever she stopped on a "pressure point" she had to sorta give a little jump on that point to add that little oommph!
i did a foot reflex next & there were certain spots where he was "massaging" where it really hurt. since i don't speak mandarin, i didn't bother to ask what those spots were.
then we went out for dinner to celebrate s's b'day. i felt like drinking so i did. i thought since i hardly drink anymore, what's the harm? i wanted to drink anyway. i don't remember how many i had but i do know that it's way less than i used to be able to consume. i was high by the end of the night. i've realised that i can't drink like a fish anymore (which is a good sign in my books). i'm getting old & i hardly drink now. oh, not to forget, i have begun to feel like crap the next day. since i've given the other thing up, i'm thinking of giving up alcohol as well or maybe only indulge in the odd tipple for special occasions. sigh........slowly but surely i will be vice-less.
then there's all that junk that we have been consuming. yuck!
well, here's to getting back on the right track & not to forget the pleasures from our trying sessions! ; )