ok........i've been slacking off. well, to bring you guys up to speed, baby c is ONE already! woohoo!
for the past 3/4 months, i've been feeling so sick. i have constant headaches, dizziness, nausea, unbelievable tiredness, sleepiness, body aches, difficulty breathing, forgetfulness, not remembering words, etc (the list is endless). the fatigue was so crippling that i couldn't function at all. b had to skip a LOT of work to help me out at home. i couldn't make it through the day. all i wanted to do was curl up and sleep all the time. but of course, that was not doable. i still had baby c to attend to. (although now it was only a mere quarter of the time i used to spend with him).
i went to see so many doctors. for those who really know me, you'd know that i do NOT like to go to the doc's. i prefer to let whatever illness i have run its course. so for me to go all out to see doctors, i felt that there's something really wrong. i went for mris, mras, etc. everything came back normal. before going in for the scans, i would actually pray and hope that they'd find something, anything. cancer? so be it! i was desperate to find out what's wrong and to get treatment to get well so that i could look after baby c again.
after exhausting all options, i decided to go and see my ob-gyn. she knew exactly what i was talking about: chronic fatigue syndrome and acute hormonal withdrawal (due to my pregnancy with baby c). i was so damn relieved! now that we know what i have, we can treat it. ironically, i have been put on the pill to bring my hormones into balance. it's only been about 4 days but i feel different. more like me. my ob-gyn says it's gonna take sometime for the pills to have full impact but hey, i'm game. i just so desperately want to look after baby c the way i used to. well.............here's to the road to recovery!

p/s: for those who are on my fb, please know that i won't ever announce a pregnancy there! it's too public. i'd announce it here.