got a text from p (in aus) this morning asking if i've already become a mum from the lack of posts on this blog. answer is nope, not yet. i have been staying at home and resting so nothing much has happened and hence there's nothing to blog about. i have been catching up on reading and watching tv (i've never watched so much tv in my entire life!). i walk around the apartment and rock on my feet. this is my only form of exercise now since the haze is still around and i can't trawl the malls anymore because my feet swells up so much.
my due date is on the 21st of august and as of today i have exactly 2 more weeks to go (if baby doesn't come early). my doc will not let me go past my due date because of the previous indeterminate bleeding. well, at least i have a "cut-off" date to deliver.
baby is still gaining weight as of the last check-up, which is surprising considering that a lot of women stop gaining weight towards the last 3-4 weeks of pregnancy. at the rate he's gaining weight, if he gets too big, i'd have to undergo a c-sect. i am not one of those women who have an "absolute ideal birth way to go" that it has to be that particular way or none at all. of course i am really keen on natural birth without epidural or any drugs (just gas and air) but it's not gonna stop me from asking for drugs if i really can't bear the pain! all that matters to me is the best option for my baby and that both baby and me will be fine during the labour process.
i know a lot of women towards the end of their pregnancy can't wait to get their baby out and start to fear the labour process. but not so for me. know what i fear? i fear that i won't know that i'm in labour especially if my water's don't break (water's breaking does not happen for all women).
as it is, i'm not even sure if i'm having braxton hicks (practice contractions from the 8th month onwards). it's describe as a tightening of the whole belly. what i've been feeling are cramp-like sensations and the sudden need to stop whatever i'm doing and to just take a really deep breath. i do feel a slight ache sometimes radiating from my lower back down to my thighs during some of those instances. and yes these sensations are coming more often. after these sensations have passed though i continue with whatever it was i was doing.
anyhow, i guess we'll find out my pain tolerance level when labour begins!