b asked if we could pray together last night. & for the first time in our entire history, we did. it was amazing. i was tearing up. i did most of the praying because b said that he does not know how to pray. i don't blame him. he's (was hopefully) a freethinker. i'm just so happy that he's willing to try & most importantly he wants to try.
we have had discussions before on religion & our children. we both agreed that we will raise our kids knowing God & loving God. i do strongly believe in religion, even though during my past, i didn't care much for it. i never gave God a second thought back then. but i will say this, i have had faith all throughout my life. i never doubted. i found comfort in praying whenever i needed to even as far back as then. this is what i want to impart to our children - the faith & comfort.
b on the other hand, has never experienced faith nor understand the comfort that i get in praying & believing. he admits that sometimes, he gets anxious because there's just so many problems & he does not know if he's making the right decisions. to top it off, he can't get comfort from anywhere. so he knows it will be good for our children to derive that kind of comfort & peace from God - the peace that surpasses all understanding.
i know b is trying to believe & i encourage him all the time to pray & to turn to God. i on the other hand, have been praying that God will reach out to b & that b will want to turn to God.
well, last night was a preview of God answering my prayers & i felt all warm & fuzzy inside! : )